What can i do to stop this stupid feeling??Why can't i just move on with my life?I hate myself for crying so much,i hate myself for being so stupid in relationship...After reading back my own diary,i felt so bad for what i have been doing and behaved.Why did i even live in this world in the first place?No matter how much i have wish to go back to the past,it will never happen and it's fate that make me feel this way right now bah?I felt like giving up,felt like stopping school and just stay home for reflection for the whole year...but,i can't right?

I need solutions,i need to know the source of our problems girl...I'm devastated girl girl...i felt very pain right now...excruciatingly pain.Like you've said that tears will dry up,time will heal my wound but i don't feel that at all...None of it helps even till now,months has gone by.I guess i need a person to talk to right now very badly...='(

想回到过去(want to go back to the past...)

6:09 PM sprinklinq love Y

Hmm...it's been quite some time that i didn't blog.Recently,i felt that though i have lots of friends but no one is really there when i needed one.I have personal things to share but i don't know who would be there for me all the time.I've lost another person who can always let me rely on and now,I realised...I'm all alone.I'm always alone,nobody really know what i want.I felt that i almost couldn't live on in this world,in the school.If i remain quiet,people wouldn't even care if why i am so quiet,why i don't talk to anyone.They don't even bother to ask me to join in their fun anymore. ='( I'm still sad over things in the past,i'm still upset why i can't be like how i used to be in secondary school...I don't want this life that i am living right now!

I felt miserable without the confidence that even if i didn't talk much among friends,they would still talk to me and at least notice my existence.But now,my existence doesn't even matter.Nobody knows what am i thinking deep inside me.I hate this feeling of being lonely!i hate it!i hate it!

Someone~get me out of here...

6:42 PM sprinklinq love Y

Hmm...feel so miserable being sick..sigh=( why do i have to fall sick on the wrong time?Today suppose to go Sentosa with my friends but can't go with them le...so sad =( I have to stay home for these two days and i also felt very weak after i ate the medicine.I really hate falling sick.Hopefully i can recover on Monday.Also,i hope that my work shifts don't clash with my new job in Orchard...hmm...don't know if i can cope with both jobs and school...Just hope for the best.I don't wish to quit my job in popular,after working there for quite some time,i have some feelings there.So,hopefully i can don't need to quit any place.=)

Jia You!shan=P hope to get well soon...

11:54 AM sprinklinq love Y

Haha...Some photos are taken days before i rebond my hair...heehee^^ i look different leh!=P woohoo~ I'm so happy!^^ Anyway,just wanna upload these photos for some of my friends who haven't seen me for quite some time to see. =P hahaha!!^^ Eversince i rebond my hair,i've been laughing without any reasons randomly.heehee^^ I'm so Happy!!!=D

11:14 PM sprinklinq love Y

Hmm...days has pass by so fast and now is in october le...Just a blink,everything has changed.=/ I've been thinking if i can just let go of something easily,that would be good.But sigh...It's hard to just let go and don't look back.I don't wish to regret of anything that i missed or didn't solve.Just thinking of,tomorrow might be the end of the world i'm afraid that i never get the chance to say anything to anyone.

How i wish,you could hear the sound of my heart...This sounds familiar right?It's my personal message on msn.There's this person that i would like to say this to.Because i want this person to understand what i really want or wish for.I'm the type of person who treats every friendship importantly.That's why i can't just ignore the existance of anyone.I just hope you can read this and stop ignoring me.My wish is simple...just don't ignore me,anything would be fine.=)

7:44 PM sprinklinq love Y

Recently,I've been very into Bleach anime.=P It's so exciting and interesting that i couldn't resist to just watch two episodes a day or even more when i can't control myself to stop.hahaha...i sounded like addicted right?haha...I just finish watching ep 168!woohoo~!cool man...I guess i am really addicted since the day he introduce this anime to me.^^ Anyway,i'm a person who likes to read,play games(sometimes i'm similar to guys),listen to music,watch animes.=P heehee^^ I do have some personality that are similar to guys,i realised as years passed by...

As time goes by,i felt that everything around me kept changing.Nothing stop moving or changing at all.I don't understand why there is this change all the time which may cause unpleasant things to happen in between two or more people.There are even more things that are unexpected happen to people like us or even close ones.Many times i've been wondering,what is my purpose of being in this world,what is my purpose to be writing a blog?Why is this world such a cruel and realistic?Why is money so important to people that makes the value of love between each other became lesser and lesser,smaller and smaller?hmm...=/ I wonder why is people such a complicating beings?

So many questions waiting to be answered...but who can give me a satisfy answers to these questions?It's hard to find these answers right?It's almost impossible...

Anyway,there is something that i'm happy about since yesterday...hahaha^^ It's about a part-time job which is in the town area...I guess i have found another job once again =) I hope it's a good one after tomorrow i go and fill up the form.heehee^^ Also,i'm excited about the trip to sentosa next Saturday!!woohoo~!=P I hope i can have lots of fun hanging out with my friends cum colleagues...xD can't wait to rebond my hair after this Monday when i get my salary!There is so much so much things i want to do after getting salary...heehee^^ but first of all,i'm gonna repay people who have helped me when i was broke before i can spend the money on my own pleasures.=D
But there's one last thing...i hope that he can stp blkin me and talk to me like a friend...please grant my wish.please please...

Enjoy!!!shan=P

11:17 PM sprinklinq love Y

There are some things that i am happy about since yesterday that i would like to share it here...Yesterday,i received a message from Lisa telling me that i got a job interview at Orchard.I was so happy about it that the moment i saw this message,i shouted "yes!" My parents was looking at me with curious eyes,so i told them what is it that i'm happy about.hahaha!!^^ Then,today is Belinda's and Ernest's birthday...I just felt happy for them because it's their birthday!=P I'm such a wierdo bah?heehee^^ though it's none of my business or even if i'm not close with them but i still feel happy when they are happy.hahaha xD

I realised,i really am a people person. I just felt happy when i see people around me are happy. Even if i don't really know the person well or close to them, i would still be happy as long as they are happy.heehee^^ I sounded like a crazy person right now,being happy when my friends or people around me are happy.=P

Anyway,talking about my life now...Everyday is just the same,nothing special,daily routine is wake up,prepare to go to school,when school ends i'll be heading back home.If i end school early then i would hang out with friends. Nothing special hor?It's true that my life is nothing special or as exciting as how i imagined it to be but the thing that makes it special,i think would be spending time with friends and family le.=) heehee^^ Isn't it nice to be spending time with your significant others. (^_^)

Right now,at this moment,what i wish for is to be able to talk to him like a friend without any barriers in between us.I don't really feel good to be unable to talk to a friend when they're just there...it feels bad.I really hope that nothing in the past can break a friendship between us.I'm a person who doesn't care about any rules of not allowed to be friends just because of the past.I'm impulsive at times and i'm stubborn.Damn stubborn...So when i want to do something which is within my capabilities,i would do it straight away without hesitation.Maybe you wouldn't want to talk to me still but i'll wait.

7:50 PM sprinklinq love Y

10:19 AM sprinklinq love Y

Welcome to peacelover18.blogspot.com
Love can be sweet,can be hurtful
it just depends on how you look at it...
for me,my heart has splintered into thousands pieces
-by me...-

Lin Shan Shan Amy
A.k.a pussycat/sunshine
18/10/1991
18
NYP,Diploma in Business Management
Libra
pusslil@hotmail.com
l0ve =P

all about me!
first saw this world on 18 oct 1991 and laugh for the first time =P
i love to listen to music and read books when i'm free or even hanging out with friends:)

i don't like sports but i'm ok with cycling and playing badminton.

i love playing games such as action games or fighting games...kind of like a guy:P

Currently,all i wanted is to live like a fairytale so that there isn't any misery that make me felt so pain
i guess that's all about me... =P

♥Everlastiinq Happiness
♥Everlastiinq Love
♥Everlastiinq Chocolates
Piggy who...
Loves: eat(yummy-licious foods...)
Loves: sleep
Loves: *Make More Friends!
Loves: Hang out with all my friends
Loves: to slack
Loves: music!
Loves: enjoying
Loves: Surprises...
Loves: Birthday!
Loves: Traveling!!
Loves: Laughing!
Loves: Shoppings!
Loves: G.N.O (girls night out!)

liers
people who pretends
insects
Bitches
hates to hate
smelly places
BackSTABBERS
betrayers
the RUDES
play with feelings
hate to get hurt
Alone
do household chores
being controlled
to lose something precious

Worldpeace
ChocolatesEmpire
New Storybooks!
New Clothes and Shoes
Total Makeover!
Find my true love soon...
To find someone who treasures me & loves me...
To travel with my love ones....
To find someone who understands me well
To learn pistol shooting
To be a policewoman/teacher/psychologist even dream of being a CEO of any company...haha=P